Stepping up to the plate

Recently I have made several discoveries about myself, maybe I knew of them but choose to ignore them, who knows, in any case several things, faults/weaknesses, have come up and been made known. I find it really interesting to find that little things in the past have continually made huge impacts on my life and has not been until now that I'm realizing certain behavioral patterns are negatively impacting my relationships with family members, friends, and past and current boyfriends. Luckily I have an amazing support network and an awesome bishop, who, come to find out, deals with this all the time (apparently I am not the only one in the singles ward with issues...surprising). Last week, at my bi-weekly bishop meeting, the bishop challenged me. I'm not sure I'm up for the challenge. But I'm going to at least try. Wish me luck

189 miles later

This past weekend I had the opportunity to participate in a relay race from Wickenburg to Downtown Scottsdale. For two days I was stuck in a van with Nick's dad, two brothers, and sister. By the way we placed 15th out of 75 teams in our division I must say it was very interesting. I learned a lot about Nick and his family...probably more than he would like me to know. I found it funny that everyone just assumes Nick and I are getting married. Not that that is a bad thing, its just kinda weird to me. His sister wants me to go up with her to run the St George Marathon in October. October? Thats like five months away. Who's to say Nick and I wont break up by then? Not that I would want us to break up..but still I am a little weirded out. It's like all of the sudden I have assumed a role in their family. Crazy. It got me thinking what it would be like for my family and nick's family if we ever got married. I don't think they would get along as I would hope. Not that either of our families are bad...is that the right way to describe them. But I think there are a lot of extremely strong personalities in both our families. I can see some butting of heads in the future. Obviously I'll just have to wait and see what happens, but I must admit that I have never really had a thought like that before...you know family dynamics after marriage ect.